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Saturday, October 22, 2005

Feeling: nth special
Last Talked To: My SS textbook
Currently Listening To: HEAVEN ( Ayumi Hamasaki )

Ok so its been AGES since i last updated... not sure why i wanna update again now but just tot tt i should. ok, i gt a little prob with uploading files onto my angelfire/tripod/ripway accs and its starting to get irritating! so i decided to blow steam off with my SS text... lolz... first time.

i'll try to upload HEAVEN soon and let everyone hear it. its really gd... and if you want it, you can always ask =D. i dont think i am going to upload anymore mp3s for ppl to download... its kinda breaking the law one way or another. dont wanna get jailed/fine/ smth like the other bloggers... its like being so restricted... i dunno! not my concern anyway...........

Dav!d :~: 1:16 PM

Monday, August 29, 2005

Feeling: happy
Last Talked To: Yi xuan...
Currently Listening To: All About You ( Hillsong/United)

ok... now its like... going to be prelims le... and i am still... haha... playing abt. =p even better still, i gt someone to love now... aww.. and she is so sweet. since this is a public blog.. i can possibly say who she is rite? i'll be too stupid... lolz... if its anybody's guess... she is nice and lovely<-- no choice must say if not i'll die.. =x

These few days have been the happiest... but yet... i have this strong urge to study... too many distractions ard me... my next step to better grades.. dismantle my com =/ uninstalling games proved pretty much useless.. haha... the other thing i could do is pray? which... i think i better starting doing today...

So as for today... i din do much.. sch as normal.. then elcot thing... no more ponning this week... last week dunno who asked mi to pon.. asked EVERYBODY to pon... in the end also get scolded by mrs tai. so this week guai already, all go... lolz... then after sch went to je find dear... then that BI-... must go along.. sry hong lun... no more ka... =p then after that walk ard with dear till tuition time... then go tuition do work.. lolz... for the sake of a 5 min break ( in my case, nap) i rushed through my work... still correct okayys! then after that talked with her as i walk home.. haha.. so nice...

then here i am.. blogging though there is a mock exam tmr... how smart of me rite... haha..

Dav!d :~: 9:37 PM

Friday, August 05, 2005

Feeling: Tired
Last Talked To: Sharon
Currently Listening To: Tell The World (United)

Its been a month now... since i last blogged.. and since all the nonsense has ended... its good, in a weird way. I mean... yea, i still feel smth... but in another month or so... things will be fine... totally... just tt now, i really have gt no idea what to do. Things are like so.. blahh-ish.

ok, so in this 1 month, i think i changed more than i did since last year. REally REALLY changed alot... for better or ferr worst? i dunno... studying more now... least i THINK so... more active physcially as well... so, i suppose, things are taking a better turn.. blahh.. i must be boring everyone with this entry. there are things i cant say... so... tts tt...

Life can get no better... ferr what i have lost, i think i gained alot more... and, what i gain is smth not everyone can have. yea its worth it...

things have to go on.. and with the Os just rd the corner, i gotta buck up... so things arnt going to be easy... but i dont wanna let anytihng distract mi anymore... Praise GOD! i shall enter into pioneer JC...

Dav!d :~: 5:36 PM

Friday, July 08, 2005

Feeling: Tired and a lil confused
Last Talked To: Nette
Listening To: King of Majesty ( United )

So it goes on again... another day in life... sometimes it just occurs to me tt i worry to much... and by worrying.. i affect the ppl ard me.. why worry rite? i worry cos i am afraid... but then, why shoudl i be afraid? my future has been pathed out and all i need to do is to thread it... Come what may, i wont want to feel hurt again... and i wont fall. i think there is nth more to it... if things are to be like that... then what can i do? i mean... as long as i have faith and pray abt it... i'll be fine... and the BIGGEST thing i nid to pray abt... is to let go and to stop worrying for no reason...

i am from the "Y" generation or smth.. and they worry too much... well, cant doubt tt now... i do so too much. but how can worrying help? instead i should be letting the feelin pass mi. enjoy the good moments that comes... and let the bad moments leave... it just hit mi tt... when i do smth that will help ease my worry for abt a mili second, i put pressure on the ppl ard mi... making them sad... i think i gt ALOT of soulsearching to do... and a lot of "coming-to-terms-with" to do with myself..

i believe tt i can do it... its time to stop being my selfish stupid self... its time to grow up... stop being so stupid and being so weird... i want to do what is rite... and what is not out of the ordinary. stop using my brains... someone gave me tt solution to all my probs... sounds great to me.. but things in life is made in such a way that, the human body wont accept things which are new initially... it reacts in a horrible manner... and it does things which dosen help at all.. so its sort of a STUPID thing to do... yet, we all do it.. i do it, you do it...

i think to conclude this... i want everyone to stop worrying and start planning... plan of the good things that will be coming to you soon... and not of the bad things that might happen... being optimistic is not easy.. but, it is the most meaningful way of living ur life... and trust mi, you'll love it... =)

Dav!d :~: 5:12 PM

Sunday, July 03, 2005

Feeling: mixed between happy... and a lil down
Last Talked To: Sui Fai
Currently Listening To: My God ( United )

Ok... happy and sad... firstly... sad, missed the outing today... a certain SOMEONE... hee hee, once again didnt come at the last moment... -,-" but thankfully.. i didnt make someone else wait. ok, i am not makin sense but its ok. Happy in the sense tt perhaps.. i still get some encouragement... though i think i am having a lil happiness prob again... bleaahhss.. and its my fault! bang myself against the wall or smth if i have to but i doubt tt'll help..

Trying to stop dotaing... can live without it.. but still.. theres this big WANT TO... oh well.. i am going to slp early from now on... i am going to be good... learnin from someone =p

i still have joy in what i do... i bought this band from ACTS bookshop... " Have Hope"... tts like, just what i needed... i need hope... someone out there.. if you are readin this at anytime... give me more hope ok?

Dav!d :~: 9:51 PM

Saturday, July 02, 2005

Feeling: Better than ever
Last Talked To: Xin Fei
Currently Listening To: Forever And A Day ( Hillsongs )

Life is Great... Maggie burnt these cds for me ( Thanks alot there =D )... from hillsongs and united and its just so good... really makes me wonder why i didnt go for this kinda music in the past... Anyway, my life seems to be like.. so wonderful now. Its almost impossible for mi to explain it.. i just dont feel upset over things anymore... tiny thigns especially.. even if "someone" horr... dun reply to mi... it dosen mean anything more than, " away or busy"... be more understandin... haha.. its weird how all these happens... thanks to God... the impossible has happened.. and i am so greatful for it...

Anyway, this is afterall a public blog... not for mi to go into details... so i'll just simply say... if you feel sad at anytime of a day... dun look at the present... look to the future... plan for smth gd to happen, go out or smth and look forward to it.. i tried it and it works... makes me really happy...

Dav!d :~: 1:28 PM

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Feeling: Normal ( after what has happened... its pretty surprising )
Last Talked To: Xin Fei
Currently Listening To: All I'm Living For ( Planet Shakers )

Ok.. smth major happened today... kinda... but it just didnt hit mi tt hard anymore... anyway.. this entry is more abt my tots than what happened today... i am not a fan of such details...

The thing i feel abt running away from a problem... is tt running dosen solve anything... its the easier and most painless ( temporary ) way of solving something... confronting the thing straight on will hurt the most and its the most difficult path to go... but.. come to think of it... running.. will it help? you will come back to the point where you are forced down the difficult path... all that is managed is to prolong the pain and suffering.. for temporary relief. its like getting drunk, it takes ur worries away but does it help? i ran from a problem recently... but now, i can run no more.. it makes things worst than before... so, i came to a conclustion, dont run... no matter how hard or how pain its going to be... the result is the same even if you run... do smth smart.. dont follow my footsteps... its not worth ur time, your energy, your life...

Besides having a pretty much normal day... cept for the workshop which was a total joke.. i think nth much happened... i am happy.. i am glad... cos no matter wat happens... i gt my faith i can rely on... which is ever rdy... i'll never let it fade...

Dav!d :~: 7:28 PM